Last holiday vacation, I did not do anything but to watch movie or series in my computer. One of them is The Silver Linings Playbook, starring Jennifer Lawrence and Bradley Cooper. There were lines from the movie that made me realize a few things about my life before, and what I'm doing right now.
Yes I admit. I failed with my "supposed" profession (a nurse). It's really hard to think about it. The pain and disappointment really made my self-esteem very low. I see myself hurting. The process of healing was long as it was very hard for me to forgive myself. Day by day I started to feel that my hard work is worthless.
You have to do everything you can, you have to work your hardest, and if you do, if you stay positive, you have a shot at a silver lining.-- Pat (The Silver Linings Playbook)
When I see my work as a plus size designer from ERZULLIE'S Pre-Holiday and Holiday 2013 collection, for the first time, I feel genuinely PROUD of myself... thinking, Damn!! It's so beautiful and I looovee it!
It makes me realize that I was wrong... It's okay to fail. You just have to do what is in your heart's desire... and the universe will move for you! Forgive yourself and be happy!
"There's always going to be a part of me that's sloppy and dirty, but I like that. With all the other parts of myself. Can you say the same about yourself f**ker? Can you forgive?"-- Tiffany (The Silver Linings Playbook)
